七夕...

七夕，
我脸上带着微笑，
却原来皮笑肉不笑。
我看来很开心，
却原来只是不想被揭开疮疤...

七夕，
看见一对对的情侣，
很开心、很幸福，
就连天上的牛郎织女，
也都很幸福，
哪怕只是今天，
哪怕只是一分、一秒，
都是幸福的回忆。

七夕，
我想了很多。
我知道这一切是施舍，
这一切的回忆都不该属于我的，
而我却宁可背叛自己，
让自己沉浸在这虚伪的梦里。

我宁可孤单，却不要寂寞...

碎碎念

兜兜转转了这么久，终于决定留下，
为什么？

你问我，我也不知道...
有英国不去，却跑来这个不知道那里的这里？！
至少也去吉隆坡嘛...
对啦，我也认为这很笨，
而且还是被关在这里这么多年...
人家都能拿master了啦！
你还在degree...

不过话说回来，
读完有工作，（虽然不是很喜欢啦...）
假期又多，
福利又好，
有何不可？

想像以后你们在工作，
我放假，
心里就暗爽...哈哈XD

你们问我会不会想家，
我说还好，
是因为在家是一个人，
在这里至少还有一个房友....
但无可否认，
在家当然比较爽啦...
不过我应该是比较想念美里的干面啦，
干面啊干面，
你放心，
我快回来了，
等我啊~

说真的，
好想念美里的朋友哦...
可惜我们各分东西，
很少会再见面，(虽然我会比你们常回美里啦...嘿嘿）
可是真的很想念你们....
想念我们一起疯的日子...

在这里过得...呃...
像在监牢里一样，
有食物吃(虽然是自己付钱啦...)
有免费地方住，
还有书可以读咧...
大致上和坐监没多大分别，
而且一坐就五年半...

这里唯一的娱乐就是上网，
可是，
什么想上的网都与我们“隔绝”了...

哦，对了，
差点忘了说，
这里常停电，
就像生活在“山巴”里，
一间在“山巴”里的监狱，
可想而知就是，
惨、惨、惨....

好啦，今天暂时就念到这里，
暂时放过这间可怜到不行的“监狱”
不远的将来再继续 =)

Pls pray for Jia Yi

One of my best frens need our support, pls pray for her, this is what she wrote for me...

Hi everyone..Jia Yi here.

Just to let u noe wat happened these days...I am facing tonnes of exam stress..its actually nothing to me but then once i fall sick..it became something very important to me..not that i have to pass this exam..just that i feel that God wants me to learn something..and i haven get to know it yet.

I had been coughing n fever these few days.I noe that God always there to hear our prayers..do pray for me..and pray that i can went through this semestral exams smoothly.. May God Bless each n everyone of u..

Thank You.


Jia Yi.


ps: do remember with God everything is possible...so, start praying...thx everyone....

走在微风吹过的街头

走在微风吹过的街头，

眼望四周短暂的停留，

默默地等候，

默默地守候，

何时才能牵你的手？

一片繁星寂寞的夜晚，

流星划过，

我的心在颤抖...

曾经的承诺，

曾经的誓言，

看破天空流云在飘散，

孤单夜里脑海中的你，

点点回忆沾满我思绪。

越想越孤单，

越想越寂寞，

一个人的世界像荒漠...

无数梦里牵你的手，

睡醒之后甜蜜还停留，

拥抱被扑空，

你已经远走，

留下悲伤自己守候...

其实我想要的只是一个拥抱

其实我想要一个拥抱，
只是不知道，

你我隔着千山万水，
我只能在梦里与你相会...
其实我想要一个拥抱，
根本只是一个拥抱，
让我此刻不再惧怕，
夜的黑、心的凉，
让我有个依靠...
我想要个拥抱，
哪怕只是一秒，
请在你转身之前，
想起背后的我，
静静的...静静的...
在等待着，
这个可能根本不存在的拥抱...

家

我很幸福、想要一直幸福...
为我在你心里腾出一间小房，可以吗？
对我说，快对我说，
来，回家吧，回来吧！
想要将你的心房幻化成海的蔚蓝模样，
停歇在幽暗的淤泥里，
只有你知道我如何躲藏...
你不作声，
任我的泪在你心里恣肆流淌，
请你，
请你务必接纳我这不堪的灵魂，
除了你的心，
我真得无处可去...
我是你的孩子，
在每一个甜美的梦里，
都有你沁蓝微光

My Wedding Plan??

1. How old are you?
~18

2. Are you single?
~Do I have to answer this???

3. At what time you think you'll get married?
~plan to get married at 25 la....donno can o not... =p

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person whom you are with now?
~Don hav 1...so...donno

5. If not who do you want to marry?
~hehe...look at the previous post la...

6.Who'll be your brides maid & best man?
~My beloved cousin VH & I'll leave the best man for my husband to choose la...

7.Do you want a garden, beach or traditonal wedding?
~Garden...If i can only choose from this three....

8.Where do u plan to go on honeymoon?
~ sumwhere where there is theme parks... =p

9.How many guest do u think u'll invite?
~Best friends & relatives only....( I mean my best friends and his best friends...)

10.Will that include ur exes?
~maybe...if we're still good friends

11. How many layers of cake do u want?
~I'm fine with that, as long as it is the real one...

12. when do you want to get married? morning or evening?
~morning...

13. Name the song to tune you would like to play at your wedding?
~Everyday I Love You

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal fork, spoon n knife?
~fine dining

15. Champagne or red wine?
~both...

16. Honeymoon right after wedding or days after?
~both can do....as long as there's honeymoon...

17. Money or hsehold items?
~money...

18.How many kids would you like to have?
~2

19.Will you record your honeymoon in DVD or VCD?
~DVD....

20.Whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
~All those who read this!!!!

My kind of guy...

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
~As long as he's not a "dinosaurs" can le... =p

2. Smart?
~Sure!

3. Preferred age?
~not younger than me, same age or older...

4. Preferred height?
~at least 173cm

5. How about sense of humor?
~MUST!

6. How about piercings?
~No thanks...

7. Accepts you for who you are?
~Of course!

8. Pink hair?
~Don ever try....

9. Mushy or no?
~not too much...sometimes can lor...

10. Thin or fat?
~as long as heavier than me can le...

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
~brown / white....

12. Long hair or short hair?
~both can do as long as it suits him

13. Plastic or metal?
~Plastic! (erm....i mean the other meaning of plastic...hehe...the card de...)

14. Smells good?
~ =.= of course la....

15. Smoker?
~Don even ever try it!

16. Drinker?
~as long as he knows when to stop...

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
~erm....erm....

18. Muscular?
~Hehe, not a must la...but better be one...

19. Plays piano?
~If can, why not?

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
~same as the answer above

21. Plays violin?
~erm...i don really like the sound of violin...

22. Sings very good?
~hehe...if can of course! but at least must know how to sing and have a good voice lo!!

23. Vain?
~nop, i don think so...

24. With glasses?
~no la...why not wear contact lens??

25. With braces?
~nop! =p (if before can la...)

26. Shy type?
~a bit =)

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
~base on the situation

28. Active or passive?
~active!!!

29. Tight or bomb?
~anyone wans tight????

30. Singer or dancer?
~singer & dancer...

31. Stunner?
~can be....

32. Hiphop?
~no thanks...

33. Earrings?
~as long as it suits him...

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
~NEVER!!!!

35. Dimples?
~will be better if he has

36. Bookworm?
~the study type, not the bookworm type...

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
~romantic kind of guy....

38. Playful?
~sure

39. Flirt?
~sometimes

40. Poem writer?
~i don actually care...can be one la...

41. Serious?
~sometimes

42. Campus crush?
~better lo...

43. Painter?
~can be la...

44. Religious?
~YA!!

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
~no......

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
~better don be....

47. Speaks 20 languages?
~WOW!!! erm....erm....erm....if he is willing to teach me la...

48. Loyal or faithful?
~faithful!

49. good kisser?
~haha....sure...

50. loves children??
~yup!






Now, i tagged this to all those who read this post...If you're a guy, juz change the title la... =)

有一个名字叫成熟

再也不会为美貌而悸动，
因为需要的是一个心灵，
再也不会无谓的去爱，
因为不仅仅是争强好胜，
再也不会无原则的忍让和付出，
因为再宽广的爱也会干涸，
更不会飞蛾扑火的去爱，
因为扑向的可能是欺骗与背叛。。。
从没有自己的期许，
也许自己会为些许的小事而感动，
因为有些小事让你感觉到温暖。
在这个寒冷的季节，
你懂了勿以善小而不为的道理。
为了友谊和忠诚，
去爱，被爱和相爱。
你懂了，最珍贵的、最应该珍视的是相爱。。。
因为两颗心的撞击，
也许是前世在今生的继续，
如果没有了相爱，
如何去选择爱和被爱？
也许自己不会为了不要漠视一个人的爱，
去开始一段没有结局的故事，
而是去珍视每一个珍视自己的心灵，
当刻骨的伤痛渐渐平息，
当自己鼓起勇气，
去战胜这个夏季的寒冷，
当自己懂得用别人的心思考，
我懂了，
一个名字叫成熟。

Summary...

I can't believe that I'm studying at maktab now....duh....even ns is better than here...i'm sure u can imagine how's the life here...here are some of the pics i took, and also to make the long story short 4 all of u 2 c...

Rachel & me (we're the only chinese in our course)

Zul (our "penghulu")

Hamy (class monitor)

Yazeed
(our cute boy...as he got serious home sick,he got fever the day he reach here...)

Ilanggo
(there's only two indians in our course and he's one of them la...and also our class's Ah Long XD)

Aina (our assistant monitor)

Amirah (so hardworking doing her work =p)

Lin (is she cute?)

Anis (the prettiest in our class....XD)

Nad & Rachel (usually is my project's partner)

Raihan & Zell (two "small" & cute galz)

see the boys are so......hardworking

wa! our "penghulu" so concentrate on the "mango season" novel a??

Ok, that's all about my class...there's only 13 people in my class and we might be adding some more next week...(hope there's cute guyz...hehe)
And now....I wanna introduce you....

My waden...she's very 38 and most of us don like her much la...

Aha! this is my room....

This is the bed....curious bout the bed sheet?
tell you la...my roommate & me are twin ma...haha...
no la, actually we also donno why we got the same thing...and the weird thing is, we even have the same blanket and the same water bottle...

haha...this is our bed after modifying....

hui ping & me...(my roommate la...)

We again at warisan having our dinner...

Camwhore on plane when going to sabah....

Miss you all...but i'll be going back to Miri every school holiday....so don worry...will be updating my blog soon when I can go online again...

Love

I wonder as I wander
Out under the blue blue sky
Why do the one I love and I are always apart?
Are you happy where you are?
Whenever that may be?

I wonder as I wander
Playing the same song over and over
It reminds me of you
Who makes laughter grow and tears disappear
You're always the one and only

I wonder as I wander
When does it start and when will it end?
How long we've been far apart?
But remember,
No matter how far we are,
I care

I wonder as I wander
Under the winter sky
As I shed a single tear
Thinking of the days gone by
You will always be my dear

We're both fallen under
The strongest curse ever
The curse of whole universe
That's LOVE...